A lie...... and I still regret...
I found this can be the best way to explain how I perceive because of a lie, to my friends.
My life was smooth and sleek.All at once, I was unable to concentrate because my mind was preoccupied by an affair I had.I altogether can not blame my affair rather I blame my fate,locality,circumstances etc...
Those were the worst part of my life,where I became an agnostic.I lost all my hope towards my destiny.
There were really few,who understood my status and they did back me up.My friends circle shrank.
I was caught by a hurricane.The outset of the hurricane was quite horrible.It hit me very hard.I was ripped apart by that.I could not move.As I said, only few were ready to help me.Ultimately even the hurricane was one among the few I felt.Some sort of good fortune had fallen on me, I should agree.
The storm took me to another world,where I wanted to be.New world, new friends and everything was new.I did not want to lose all those.Only thing i could do was to maintain that dignity or rank or title or what ever, that I had among the NEW.All I did was a lie.I regret that lie was so idiotic, silly. But it mattered to me.
I conceive that lie was not at all necessary.I do not know how to get rid of that matter.
Some day you people will come to know, I was pretty sure about that.I want you , my friends ,not to ignore me and I hope you all will remit me, and take me out of this cage of lie.
I hurt ,hurts me a lot.I can see this matter would no way bother you.You will not even have time to consider this matter.But in case, If you feel disgusted on me,I would not be able to talk or face you.
And that is why this post is for.
I expect you all will understand my emotion and will forgive this poor me rather than hating .
I found this can be the best way to explain how I perceive because of a lie, to my friends.
My life was smooth and sleek.All at once, I was unable to concentrate because my mind was preoccupied by an affair I had.I altogether can not blame my affair rather I blame my fate,locality,circumstances etc...
Those were the worst part of my life,where I became an agnostic.I lost all my hope towards my destiny.
There were really few,who understood my status and they did back me up.My friends circle shrank.
I was caught by a hurricane.The outset of the hurricane was quite horrible.It hit me very hard.I was ripped apart by that.I could not move.As I said, only few were ready to help me.Ultimately even the hurricane was one among the few I felt.Some sort of good fortune had fallen on me, I should agree.
The storm took me to another world,where I wanted to be.New world, new friends and everything was new.I did not want to lose all those.Only thing i could do was to maintain that dignity or rank or title or what ever, that I had among the NEW.All I did was a lie.I regret that lie was so idiotic, silly. But it mattered to me.
I conceive that lie was not at all necessary.I do not know how to get rid of that matter.
Some day you people will come to know, I was pretty sure about that.I want you , my friends ,not to ignore me and I hope you all will remit me, and take me out of this cage of lie.
I hurt ,hurts me a lot.I can see this matter would no way bother you.You will not even have time to consider this matter.But in case, If you feel disgusted on me,I would not be able to talk or face you.
And that is why this post is for.
I expect you all will understand my emotion and will forgive this poor me rather than hating .
what lie da?
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